DISNEYLAND

Tags

identity, meaning, poem, poetry, psychological, Rorschach, writing

DISNEYLAND

my pen
leaked

ink
flowed
over the
page

spread out
into a tiny lake
alternatively, a massive
Rorschach blot

which no
sooner appeared
than a psychologist
grabbed me (most
predatory reader)

asked me
in seeing what I saw
how might
figure myself out

but my mind
was no longer attune
to writing
subtleties and niceties

to complexities of cadence,
rhythm, symbolism

but just wanted to broad-brush
the world in
cartoon sentimentality

take the first available
pen-drawn train to
the rides of Disneyland

TROLL

Tags

monster, poem, poetry, possession, psychoanalytical, psychological, psychopath, Shadow, sociopath

TROLL

you do not speak

it is
a person

sad little person
inside you
that speaks

but
doesn’t
look like
a person

but like
a movie
projector

one that
casts a dark light
turns everything
into shadow

every character
that steps
into frame

a monster
that must be
destroyed

before
it kills

CHECK LIST

Tags

childhood, Lacan, Patriarchy, poem, poetry, psychoanalytical, psychological, symbolic order

CHECK LIST

can’t remember shit
from my extreme childhood

nothing from that time
of potty-regime
really sticks with me

so if you would regression memory me
to explore what neurosis, soul
damage and complexes

getting me to stare
deep into the dark sexual pools
of those truly hypnotic eyes

I do not what I can
bring to you, present
before you

what in that tale of stuff
that shaped
for better or worse
long before manhood

will run with
escape the rigid
upright law codified
in each
perfect sentence

will satisfy
criteria

meet your check list
be the man they
told you
(way, way back
before linguistic memory)

you need, aspire to,
cannot but be compelled
to truly desire

FUNNY

Tags

Horror, IT, Pennywise, poem, poetry, psychoanalytical, psychological, Repression, Unconscious

FUNNY

funny isn’t it
Pennywise
clowning around

tucking into
your collar bone

the frill of his collar
suddenly so starched
it’s razor’s edged

and your head is lecturing
your body
(so easy when
decapitated
to have this
sort of chat)

yes, I told you
to absorb, internalize
all that
shifty, shadowy,
stuff of childhood

not to let
the monster dictate
make a whole song
and dance of it

the joke written in blood
(your blood) across
a whiteboard

if you weren’t dead
you could get a whole
TED talk out of it

crack a few joke
anecdotes to woo
the crowd
on how truly terrifying
that thing we
do not speak of
yet is
still
return of the repressed

DENIAL

Tags

apocalyptic, climate change, denial, Global warming, Ocean, poem, poetry, psychological

DENIAL

in your sublime
state of denial
can’t say that
it will be
the obvious
iceberg into
which
you will fatally crash

no, you will
be lucky find an
ice cub never mind
an iceberg
with the planet’s
climate turned to
broil, to
barbecue grill

denial will be
the ocean pouring
through your
windows, through
your front door

and you standing there
with fake immunity syndrome

a the
man-eating sharks follow
perhaps a great
white in there (turning
death denial into
delicious irony)

RIDGE

Tags

dysfunction, Family, poem, poetry, psychological, War

RIDGE

there is
a demon
in every
family

and I don’t
mean like
dirt behind
the fridge

look in
the cupboard
you may
or may
not see
someone
left a
night-glo
plastic
skeleton

the demon
there
you whole life
but about
to desert
you

like all
in your
unit

each one’s
special, private
demon

refusing
to self-sacrifice
will
flee
the battle

when in the name
that all is
Holy to
the God of
Nations

the
highest
in the
hierarchy

National Lord
of Demons orders
you
die in
defence of
all your loved ones

attacking
the loved ones
who hold
that ridge

NIGHT POEM

Tags

poem, poetry, psychological, Reader, writing

NIGHT POEM

I danced with
your monsters

wrote them
a poem

do not forget
to read it
to them

when they
emerge

insist you
devote yourself
to darkness
and to night.

CREATURE

Tags

apocalyptic, Censorship, Creativity, Frankenstein monster, Humanity, identity, mass politics, mob, poem, poem poetry political moral, Poet, poetry, power, psychological

CREATURE

I am a creature
of rhythm
and rhyme
no longer
fit into
your paradigm
which has shifted,
turned
from Sun to
Moon
from place
of fire to
dark, cold crater
(on side that
never sees
the Earth)

and worse,
I suspect my difference
means you
must kill if
you catch me

and so, already running but
will you hunt me?
I look for torches but
of course there are
none

that you
no longer see, are
stumbling in darkness
does not mean
you are not coming

your true meaning
always in form of
mob or
possee

herein alone your
sense of certainty

as I
leave words to
hide
and reveal my trail

TREE

Tags

Consciousness, Creativity, History, Humanity, identity, Language, meaning, metafiction, Metaphor, metapoetic, Narrative, philosophical, poem, Poet, poetry, postmodern, postmodernist, psychological, spiritual, transformation, Universe, writing

TREE

asked a tree
if it — we — had
a history

or if we were just fictional beings in
a simulation, as Buddha
did
in fact suggest
(struggling to incarnate as
Keanu Siddhartha)

possible to
efface as
glitches in
the system

characters to be rewritten
(structural flaws
to correct)

making for something that
lends itself to
deeper analysis
better
viewing, reading
in mode
lyric, comic, tragic

or postmodern self-
reflexive that somehow
narrates itself

and so,
I asked a tree, am
still waiting in quandary

nothing as it
should be
(as many as leaves, all
its thoughts
waiting to
be
signifier signified connected

spliced and grafted,
assessed, processed)

QUITE

Tags

Lacan, Language, poem, poetry, psychoanalytical, psychological, Unconscious

QUITE

the unconscious

is
structured
like

a language

Lacan said this but
I did not
understand

it quite

being unconscious