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AND LOSS

19 Sunday Jan 2020

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AND LOSS

all my life so
scared of losing
so scared of loss

then
I lost you

lost my
mind

everything there in
the sadness column

only life left
thing to add
my
outstanding debt

DARKNESS POEMS

29 Tuesday Oct 2019

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DARKNESS POEMS

ROLLER

I took a roller to
my life’s story

so every scene
could fade to gray

dark gray, light gray
forget the fifty
when it comes
to gray there
are but
two shades only

everything just
a reconfiguring
of life’s single binary:
your
triumphant humanity
of the good, truth and
beauty

versus mine of failure
self-deception and pain

***

LAST POEM

they tried
to save
my last poem
but it
did not

want
to be saved
tried
to escape

but was caught
and burnt
for being
insufferable

(I too
feeling
the
glorious
horror
of
fire

as it
went up in flames)

***

DARKNESS POEM

I stumbled into a deep
and terrible darkness

most people
cannot fathom
and yet it is there

a darkness fit
for Styx or
the Stygian premise
that is Tartarus

down through the innermost
regions of Hades to
that place where
evil is singularity
rages
out of control

rips the black wings off ravens
to colour the sky as is befitting
with their
blood
and black feathers

the sky that is
perfect as
expression

of hopelessness
and pain

***

TAKE

take everything you gave me
all the good, the bad
and the really bad

strip me down to nothingness
where there is nothing to
say, nothing to feel

no words to utter
just the
revelation
of a
nihilism
that nothing can answer

***

Mr 9mm

Mr 9mm sidled up to me
started to speak
at point blank
range

enunciated all
the key points of difference
between myself
and the world

when it came to
matters of
belief, philosophy and ideology

no gainsaying that position
countering that argument

***

ZERO PEOPLE

they are the
zero happiness ones

God created them so
you might feel good
about yourself

easy now to
think
there but
for the grace
go I

truth being
they don’t really suffer
after you
have drawn
the important life
lesson about
being grateful
you are
quite at liberty to
dispose of them
gently, euphemistically,
or, as is
way more fun,
with flamethrowers, icepicks,
chainsaws or sawn-off shotguns

for when it comes
to any reasonable definition
of humanity
they are
hardly to be
considered people

are more like those old
clunky cathode-tube androids
from that low-tec science fiction
film and Tv from
the 1950s

born into lives
without love
it is
really a species
of highest, most
caring mercy
to end their suffering
any way you like

YIN

02 Thursday May 2019

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YIN

ultimately wound
defeats the weapon

in the long run
history levels,

mountains
can have
their moment
in the Sun
cognizant
that time
always flattens

and so
I come here
offering each and every rib
that you may
do what you did
for Adam

I have missed the softness
of that touch
the sorrow of
absence has

worn me away
and yet
I survive

a life lived in sorrow
purposeless without it

OR THE NEXT

24 Wednesday Apr 2019

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OR THE NEXT

he hates that voice
wants it cut
out of his brain
out of his head

the one that says
words he
cannot bear to hear
imparting hope
where there
is not

adding to the empty, nihilistic truth
that is his life’s picture
of him falling through space
(like the astronaut HAL killed in 2001)
the prospect of
you standing there: loving, waiting
arms open

thing that
is never going to happen
this lifetime or the next