ON HOLD

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love, poem, poem poetry political moral, poetry, sexual symbolism

ON HOLD

I have put my desire on hold
all those needs to
squeeze you tightly up against me
whisper sweet and crazy stories
before it gets time
for lullabies

no today I am putting myself
totally at your service
will feed you, heal you,
make you so very well
so better than well
I had convinced myself that
this was within
my range, no
limit here to my capacity

could tend to you emotionally,
physically, spiritually
like a Saint

but then the word
“physical” got my
brain fuming, head spinning
for then, of
course that would imply
careful, tender washing

each and
every
part

so many
too many

lines here

of least resistance.

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SUBTRACT ME

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death, Ending, female, Fragmentation, identity, irony, loss, love, mathematical, Mathematics, meaning, Metaphor, philosophical, poem, poetry, power, Pythagoras, Sexual, Unity, wordplay

SUBTRACT ME

would that you would
subtract me, retract me

not divide
nor subdivide me

so divisive when
you do so
whether long
or short

or all the way down
to the absurdum of
lowest
common denominator

assigning
minus sign

my neck hung around
like dog in the proverb
taking my preordained place
in the negative
column

this negative space
what
in my
case
could be
more iconic?

where better
to split hairs, split atoms
balance
the equation?

countermand the stridency of
ego as infinity
absolutely plus one

though if we were to
deconstruct, go descant
suddenly
sing a tangent

from cheap
seat in the margins

(for which always the poetic risk
of becoming drawn, and quartered)

full-throat the love
that is such a
tough customer
when it
come to quantification

that sweetest voice
not always disembodied

even if
counterintuitive, counterfactual,
beyond definition

and yet
still mathematical

as it carves me up
as you
carve me
up
as you always do

me and you together
not a simple matter of
multiplication or
addition
thing in my
brain
going back to Plato
back to Pythagoras

my hand on
your hypotenuse
saying it
“does not compute”

ON METHODOLOGY

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erotic, Ocean, philosophical, philosophy, poem, poem poetry political moral, poetry, research, sea, sexual symbolism, wordplay, writing

ON METHODOLOGY

She is staring out to sea
across the Indian today
tomorrow (will be)
across the Atlantic

and I am writing
a philosophical dissertation
on her body

not writing yet,
so much to write
squeeze into
that space

and so
whilst she stares across the ocean
taking in its majesty
I begin my field work
taking an
exploratory approach.

CASCADE

Tags

death, loss, love, poem, poetry, Separation

CASCADE

I tumble or
I fall

but neither of these
are dignity words

so let me say rather
that I cascade
into your arms
or out of them
depending

but let me lie here
letting the film run
as we humans are wont
(certainly, when it comes
to humans of the masculine persuasion
their lexicon barely more
than a list
of sexual puns)

and then
let me imagine my goodbye to the flesh
is a goodbye to you
up close and personal
in the flesh
your flesh, or body,
so to speak

but it is all
about your body I cannot speak
or even worse, cannot stop speaking.

IN SIN

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erotic, love, Metaphor, Metaphysical, poem, poetry, Sexual innuendo, sexual symbolism, spiritual, woman, wordplay

IN SIN

He was half awake the whole night
never fully asleep

wrestling with words, the right words
the wrong words, the good words, the bad words

words to put into the mouths of his
desires and his demons
and his angel suddenly
transformed, unrecognizable
different
her nails taking his skin, mouth

drinking his sweat, vampire-like in
being so suddenly
possessed by a
taste for everything inside, behind,
beneath those words
for every drop of his blood

and those eyes wild suddenly
like some kind of
shapeshifting animal

but at the heart of it all
conductor and queen of
this dark symphony
this epic revelation of
the flesh

she herself
transformed into
magician of
transformation, of the alchemy of
skin and
what lies within

of faster-
than light travel and Saint levitation

of tearing away dead words that mask
the veil of reality
until we find
the soul’s true revelation beyond
beauty, beyond sin.

HAIR OF THE DOG

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cosmic, love, Narrative, poem, poetry, sexual symbolism

HAIR OF THE DOG

after the first time
in the absence of
his/hers cigars and
patrician smoking
jackets

we spoke cosmology and
cosmic myth
exchanged bot a few
different cultural viewpoints
throwing in
not a few beloved,
deeply personal
shaggy dog stories

that took us through to dawn
when we danced our
simple pleasure in
awe of the Sun

AS RESOLVED

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paradoxical, poem, poetry, Sexual, sexual symbolism

AS RESOLVED

deeper
deeper

and yet
deeper

even as asked for
this conundrum of
the possible/ impossible
began
to define us

and this:
last word on the thing
before dissolution
(my head in
that cloud where
words dovetail spectacularly
make for perfect punning)

and so
he who writes his way
into myth goddess must
needs write
his way out of her

but no one who
contrived himself into that
personal Olympus
ever left without loss
whatever gained to
have balanced

and he we are
so acutely level
and yet
hanging by a thread, perfect
Hitchcock suspenseful

it will
take
all of time (dragons
devouring many suns
in that meanwhile)
to resolve the wholeness
wholeheartedness of
this matter

SEX SWORD

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katana, Kill Bill, love, poem, poetry, sex, surrender, sword, Zen

SEX SWORD

sex with you
Hattori Hanzo sword

sexual with you
gold and
black katana

synthesis, antithesis
life and
death in
this dialectic

perhaps the Zen
realization would
be surrender

not just
forgo
the sword

but give it to you
let you cut me

let our lovemaking
get really bloody

SUPREMACY

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checkmate, Chess, love, poem, poetry, sex

SUPREMACY

outplayed,
out thought

as I stare across the board
I see in two moves you
are about to
mate me

you, my Gemini girl,
in terrible collusion
with your evil twin

the game was hard
and tough but now
my position is lost
and I, your
total prisoner,
must resign
to what awaits me

my body
sliding into yours
to consummate
your supremacy

EQUATION

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Consciousness, erotic, Metaphor, Metaphysical, philosophical, poem, poetry, quantum, Schrodinger, Sexual innuendo, wordplay

EQUATION

sat next to cat
in the box
waiting on
radioactive decay

stroked her fur
to give comfort
reminding me

of when you and I
sat in a box
me stroking your fur
you dreaming of
alternate worlds, parallel
universes

time
burning the candle at both ends
at all three, four ends

me stroking your fur
wondering how to
transcribe this equation